“Narcissistic abuse is not just manipulation of the mind; it is an assault on intuition. It trains you to abandon what your heart knows, to believe in a promised version of someone who never arrives, and to survive on gaslit hope while their behavior tells the truth.” ― Chief traumatologist, seema sharma, sep, lmft, lpcc
Narcissistic Abuse and Trauma in Pasadena, California
UNDERSTANDING THE WOUND
What happened to you was real. The slow erosion of your confidence. The moments you were made to doubt what you saw with your own eyes. The way affection arrived and then vanished, leaving you working harder to earn back something that was never stable to begin with. You are not imagining it. You are not too sensitive. You did not make it up or make it worse. Someone treated you in a way that was harmful, and your pain is a true and accurate response to it.
“Narcissistic abuse is the consistent pressure to disappear from yourself, until your needs, boundaries, and inner knowing no longer exist in the room—only them, their emotions, and their demands.” — Chief Traumatologist, Seema Sharma, SEP, LMFT, LPCC
You may have spent a long time being told the opposite. That you were the problem. That you were overreacting, misremembering, asking for too much. Narcissistic abuse works by making you distrust your own mind, until the person who hurt you becomes the only one who gets to define what is real. If you are reading this with a quiet, exhausting question underneath it, was it really that bad, was it really abuse, was it really them, let this page be one place that answers clearly. Yes. What you went through has a name, and you deserve to heal from it.
RECOGNIZING THE CONDITION
What Narcissistic Abuse Is…
Narcissistic abuse is a pattern of psychological and emotional harm caused by someone who relates to others through control, manipulation, and a profound inability to truly see you. It can come from a partner, a parent, a family member, a friend, or someone with authority over you. It often moves in cycles. Idealization, where you are adored and chosen and made to feel rare. Then devaluation, where you are criticized, dismissed, or punished. Then sometimes discard, and sometimes the cycle simply begins again. Over time, the highs and lows wear grooves into your nervous system, and you find yourself organizing your whole life around avoiding the next collapse.
Much of it is invisible to outsiders, which is part of what makes it so isolating. There are rarely marks anyone can see. Instead there is gaslighting, where your reality is rewritten in front of you. There is the silent treatment, the moving goalposts, the way any concern you raise gets turned back on you until you are the one apologizing. People who have not lived it often cannot understand why you stayed, why it was so hard to leave, why it still has such a hold. You are not weak for any of that. You were caught in something designed to be difficult to leave relational harm of this kind.
What You May Be Carrying
Narcissistic abuse does not end when the relationship ends, or when you finally get distance, or when everyone tells you that you should be over it by now. It leaves things behind. You may be carrying a hypervigilance that never fully switches off, a body that braces at a certain tone of voice or a particular kind of silence. You may second-guess your own perceptions long after the person is gone, hearing their voice in your head before you hear your own. You may feel a deep, disorienting grief for someone who hurt you, and then feel ashamed of that grief, as though it proves something is wrong with you. It does not. It proves you are human, and that you loved, or hoped, or tried.
For many people, there is also a loss that is harder to name. A sense that you do not quite know who you are anymore. The abuse asked you to become smaller, more careful, more attuned to someone else's moods than to your own needs, and after long enough, that way of being starts to feel like you. It is not. It is what you did to survive. The real you, the one with preferences and instincts and a clear sense of what you will and will not accept, is still there. Much of this work is about making it safe for that self to come back.
Why This Kind of Trauma Reaches So Deep…
Narcissistic abuse is not only painful. It is destabilizing in a particular way, because it targets the very faculty you would normally use to protect yourself, your trust in your own judgment. When someone repeatedly tells you that your memory is wrong, your feelings are excessive, and your needs are unreasonable, you slowly lose access to your internal compass. This is why so many survivors describe feeling crazy, when in truth they were responding sanely to an insane situation. Your confusion was not a flaw in you. It was the intended effect.
Depth psychology helps us understand that experiences like these do not stay in the mind as tidy memories. They live in the body, in the nervous system, and in the felt sense of who you are allowed to be. The hypervigilance, the bracing, the difficulty trusting kindness when it finally arrives, these are not signs of brokenness. They are the marks of having adapted, intelligently, to an environment that was not safe. Healing is not about erasing those adaptations. It is about helping your whole self understand that the danger is over, so that the parts of you still standing guard can finally rest.
How Healing Actually Happens?
There is no rushing this, and the goal is develop deep self-compassion for what you endured. We will never ask you to explain why you stayed, or to justify your pain, or to forgive before you are ready, or at all. We begin by helping you feel steadier and more resourced in your own life, so that the work of healing rests on solid ground rather than on a nervous system that is already overwhelmed. From there, we move at the pace your body sets, and let it guide the way to embodied healing.
Our work is depth-oriented, which means we are interested in more than symptom relief. We want to help you reclaim your sense of reality, your trust in yourself, and your capacity for the kind of connection that does not cost you your selfhood. We listen for the deeper story beneath what happened, not to explain your pain away, but to understand it fully, and to tend it at the level where it actually lives. The full method behind how we work.
Within that depth-oriented container, we work with parts of you that the abuse left in conflict. The part that misses the person. The part that is furious. The part that blames itself. The part that just wants to feel normal again. None of these parts is wrong, and none of them gets silenced. We help them come into relationship with one another, so the inner war that keeps so many survivors stuck can begin to quiet.
We also work with the body, because narcissistic abuse is stored there, in the flinch and the held breath and the chronic, low hum of threat. Through somatic therapy, we help your nervous system learn, slowly and genuinely, that it is safe now. And when the time is right and you feel ready, we can use holistic EMDR to help your mind process specific painful memories, so that what once flooded you can settle into something you are able to hold.
THE HOLISTIC DIFFERENCE
Healing That Reaches Beneath This Relationship.
For many people, as the immediate pain begins to settle, something deeper opens. You may notice that this relationship, as singular and devastating as it was, touched older and more tender places in you. Patterns you have lived more than once. A familiarity to the way this hurt, even as it hurt unbearably. This is not a reason to blame yourself, and it is never where we begin. It is, when you are ready, one of the most freeing places this work can go.
Because if narcissistic abuse found the tender places where you were already learning, long ago, that love had to be earned, or that your needs were too much, then healing those deeper places does more than help you recover from this one relationship. It changes what you will tolerate, what you are drawn to, and how safe you are able to feel in love going forward. This is the difference between recovering from a single experience and transforming the ground beneath all of them. We move toward this gently, only when you feel steady, and only ever as an act of care toward yourself.
Who We Work With
We work with survivors of narcissistic abuse across every walk of life. You may be a parent, an artist, a teacher, a caregiver, a founder, a clinician, a leader, or someone whose work goes quietly unseen. Many of the people who find their way to us are driven, conscientious, and deeply capable, the kind of person who holds a great deal together and rarely lets anyone see the cost. If you are used to being the strong one, the one who copes, the one who does not fall apart, it can be especially disorienting to find yourself this affected. You are not failing. You are responding, honestly, to something that hurt you.
We work with adult children of narcissistic parents, with those healing after narcissistic partnerships and friendships, and with people who have encountered these dynamics within their families or, at times, at work. Wherever the harm came from, you deserve care that takes it seriously, and that meets you with depth rather than quick fixes.
A Word on Time…
Healing from narcissistic abuse, like most trauma therapy, is not quick.. and anyone who promises otherwise is not being honest with you. The trust that was eroded gets rebuilt slowly, in a relationship where it is safe to do so. We will not promise to erase what happened or guarantee a particular outcome. What we offer is something steadier. A space held with depth, clinical skill, and genuine compassion, where you can put down what you have been carrying alone and begin, at your own pace, to come back to yourself.
Narcissistic Abuse & Recovery Therapy in Pasadena, Newport Beach, and across California
Holistic Trauma Therapy® offers depth-oriented trauma therapy in person at our Pasadena office at 65 North Madison Avenue and our Newport Beach office at 1000 Quail Street, and virtually to clients throughout California, including Los Angeles, the San Gabriel Valley, Orange County, San Diego, and the Bay Area. Many survivors of narcissistic abuse find that the privacy of virtual sessions lets them begin more gently, while others find something steadying in meeting face to face. Both are available, and we will find what feels safest for you.
Frequently Asked Questions
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If you frequently doubted your own memory and perceptions, felt you could never quite get it right no matter how hard you tried, walked on eggshells around someone's moods, and slowly lost touch with who you were, those are common signs of narcissistic abuse. You do not need a formal diagnosis of the other person to take your own experience seriously. What matters is the harm you lived and the toll it took on you. A consultation can be a safe place to talk it through without pressure.
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Missing them does not mean the abuse was not real, and it does not mean something is wrong with you. Narcissistic relationships often include genuine moments of warmth and connection, which is part of what made them so confusing and so hard to leave. Your longing is real, and so is the harm. Both can be true at once. Part of healing is making room for that complexity without judging yourself for it.
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Because narcissistic abuse does not resolve on anyone else's timeline, and recovery is not a matter of willpower. This kind of trauma reaches into your nervous system and your sense of self, and those take time and the right support to heal. The fact that you are still affected is not a weakness. It is evidence of how significant the experience was. You are allowed to take the time this actually requires.
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Depth-oriented, trauma-informed care tends to reach what surface approaches cannot. At Holistic Trauma Therapy® we work at depth first, then through parts work, somatic therapy, and holistic EMDR, helping you rebuild trust in yourself, settle your nervous system, and process painful memories at a pace your body can tolerate. The goal is not only relief from symptoms but a genuine return to yourself.
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Yes. We see clients in person in Pasadena and Newport Beach, and virtually throughout California by secure telehealth. Many survivors of relational trauma find virtual sessions offer the privacy and safety they need, while others prefer meeting in person. We will find what best supports your healing.
